tour has launched, and my heart is a bit sinking.

my heart is very much hurting right now.

tour launched and the roadies are gone. some are in chicago, texas, and yosemite. its insane how close we all felt to each other three days ago, to the point where all we wanted was some space. now we are 3000 miles away from one another. i'm not gonna lie, i miss them whole heartedly.

the house that we live in is massive, but when the roadies were here it felt too small. now its empty, and there are so many ghosts. i don't mean it to be dramatic. really there are. i walked downstairs two nights ago and it was the most erie feeling not coming down to three or four guys making food, one or two skateboarding down the hallway, and two sleeping on the couch. instead it was dead quiet except for a fan that was going in one of the bedrooms.

the past week has been exhausting and amazing. we didn't really stop moving until thursday around 1. i slept 4 hours in two days. but really it was so much fun getting to go through it all. but its time move on from roadies being here. i officially live in a completely new place.

the office is so quiet but i really like it. we all moved into the same room which is fun. and we get to hang with staff more. but its quiet for sure.

its like 50 of my closest friends just moved away for 2 months to some place absolutely incredible, and i can't go too.

i know this is place i am supposed to be but it feels like a part is missing now.

how in the world am i going to handle december?!

i lost everyones numbers. my phone deleted them. CALL ME!!

tiny update.

so i know i haven't done this in soooooo long. but know that i plan on it as soon as launch week is over.

which is friday. I PROMISE. if i don't you have permission to hate me. : )

the roadies leave on thursday. super sad and only a little good.

i might be headed for some form of depression soon.

i love and miss all of you.